So, I reached out to To write love on her arms. I received this email in response:
Thank you so much for writing to us.
We see this message as evidence that you want to keep fighting.
Kim, we believe there is still some time for you. We hope you feel that this is true too. There is still time for love to find you. There is still time to catch your breath. It is okay to stop. It is okay to be still. It is okay to rest.
We know how you feel. A lot of us at the TWLOHA office know these struggles firsthand. Many of us know what it is like to feel like you are reaching for something that is not there, or waiting for something that won’t come. Hope is a funny thing though, because it is a choice – but it is also something that comes as a surprise.
It is good that you have been talking to someone – and maybe it is good that they have had some similar experiences. Have you considered talking to a mental health professional, like a counselor or therapist? Our Find Help page may be beneficial to you in finding a professional or treatment center in your area.
We hope that today you are reminded – somehow – of the things that make you glad to be alive. Maybe that is a smell, or maybe it is a old song or a good movie. Our thoughts have tremendous power over our bodies and over our health and well-being, so we have to fight to not give ourselves over to bad thoughts. Yes, this is much easier said than done, but it could be a start for you. Life happens to us, yes, but we also have a say in what we do about the things that do happen to us. We do get to pick where we go next.
We agree with you in that we need love and hope. These are things that you cannot really buy or package or physically see. But we do experience these things. We know that somehow – somewhere beyond science and above mathematics – these things are true and real and beautiful, and that they are available to us. Here at TWLOHA, we often find hope and love within other people. We find strength and encouragement and life when we gather around those who are close to us. People need other people. We need each other.
We know the fight you are facing. We know it seems lost sometimes, maybe not worth fighting at all. We know it seems easier to hide. We know the anger and frustration you feel with yourself and with your current situation. We know how scary change can be.
But all is not lost. What you are going through now will pass. We would simply ask you to keep going. Keep moving forward. If you need to stop so that you can grieve or rest or ask a question or two, or maybe pull in a friend or family member along the way, that is okay. It is okay.
Your story is still going. There is still time. Please don’t give up.
We are with you. Our Find Help page and our blog are available to you at all times. Our online store and our social media accounts are here. You are not alone, Kim. You can reply to this e-mail if you would like to. You can ask questions. You can share your story. You are safe here.
Better Days are ahead. If you cannot believe this right now, that is okay. We will believe it for you. These days will come. There is still some time.
All I can say is thank you.